Lushan
There are no words to discribe the feelings I am going through right now, watching numerous videos of MJ on youtube - his videos, reactions on his death, comments. It makes me feel so...vulnerable maybe. How could all of the present stars refer to the accusations that has dragged this miracle of a person, this inspiration to millions to MUD?!!!!!
I think of time, and of humanity. Wonder if something like this would have happened, had Tupac stuck around for longer. The dirty, the vile, the greedy people living among us, the former fans...those are the ones who did this to you. Those are the same people who first sat around chilling and laughing and dancing, enjoying yout records; and then though...hell why not make some money and blame a guy for some shit... Well FUCK THAT!!! You don't see all the other people, the vast majority of kids who've been in there with him saying anything, but since HE doesn't have proof. Well he doesn't need one!!!!!!!!!! All of him, his nature, his character - all of this tells us, those who BELIEVE, that he was nothing like that.
I shed tears watching some videos, listening to some songs and here's a tribute that I would like to publish, and praise and join in the urge to cherish the thoughts, the memory, the IDOL!!!

Michael Jackson (29.08.1958 – 25.06.2009)
there is still so much not said,
feeling that cannot be translated into words yet
but your music lives on
and through that, all of your fans will forever mourn

We will raise our glasses, raise our heads,
Put on the "Thriller" and say the words of love that we haven't said
But until then, rest in peace Mike
You're the best that the world has ever had



@музыка: Michael Jackson - You are not alone

@настроение: MJ - ALWAYS IN MY HEART

Lushan
Uznav o svoih novih 4itatelyah, i podbodrenniy poslednimi sobitiyami rewil napisat suda 4to-to. Uje prowlo mnogo 4ego i ya stoka vsego nezape4etlel. Korotko - u Oybek-aki svad'ba. Stay tuned for the news

Lushan
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Интуитивно-этический интроверт (ИЭИ) — Лирик (Есенин)



@настроение: Gotta be starting something

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17:59

The WEB

Lushan
There's a lot u can learn when surfing the web, u don't even need to have an objective - the mere will of surf it for pleasure and information. Just a second ago an idea came into my head that in order to learn all the capitals of the world's countries does not have to be looking at the atlas; u can simply Google it, and u'll find it. That's what I did, and without surprise I found it. Then I thought it would be good to have a world atlas around so I found that as well, however what I couldn't find was an atlas without any text, so I could just learn where each country was located. But maybe I didn't look too well. However, when searching I found someone's blog, filled with all these pic's and stuff and there was a picture of David Belle. From Lingvo I've learned that parcoure is 'пробегать, проходить, проезжать; пролетать; объезжать; ходить по...' The idea is that the web can take u wherever u want, and further than that. But at the same time u need to remember to STUDY (gone to do contract law)



And most importantly, I found this work of art



Lushan
Ewe hotel skazat 4to jivya odin, ya na4al glu4it...realno pri4em. moi misli tak razvivauca 4to ya na polovinu pro sebya na polovinu vsluh 4e-to govoru, potom smeyus. ne skazat 4to eto ploho...no lu4we smeyaca v kompanii, naverno :tongue::beer::woopie:, a-to kakto creepy:alles::mosk::plush:

04:55

Easter Break

Lushan
Pervaya 4ast moih kanikul budet opisana zdes. I tak 4to proizowlo, ili lu4we skazat proishodilo. U menya ploho rabotaet probel. Provodiv Izzata ya na4al...sku4nie kanikuli. Da s odnoy storoni jizn idet svoim putem, mne otkazali Schengenskuyu vizu, u4eba ne na visote + viwel posle provodov Izzata na house party gde mne 4toto podmewali v drink tak 4to ya ppc kak otravilsa. Jizn...mogla-bi bit i lu4we. No ved sey4as vse horowo?... nu kak posmoret. lojus v 4-5 vstau...h/znaet vo skoka. ujas.
nado 4to-to menyat. v4era provodil Ade i ter sovsem odin. Vpervie v jizni, pomoemu. Tak neobi4no tak gromko sliwat misli v golove tak 4asto. Zavtra ve4erinka v SEA. dumau poyti, zaparilsa hodit kak horny bitch, ho4u nayti babu.
Za eti dni rewil vspomnit starinu - ustanovil Commandos 2 i Hit & Run (Simpsons) i poigral. nu kak, ne ploho no uj bolno mnogo vremeni otnimaet, i 4estno govorya uje ne privlekaet. Pozanimalsa i udivitelno no za 3 4asa pokril temu na kotoruyu ras4itival potratit den. Eto otli4no, esli zavtra v tom je duhe sdelau ewe 2 to mojno buet skazat 4to u menya idet vse vverh. Tak 4to vot, bolee ili menee pozitivnaya zapis o tom kak 4elovek ne teryaet nadejd i ...ho4et 4e-nit poest'. Lan powel iskat 4to est na kuhne. Lublu vas vseh

P.S.
Mojet bit etot pozitiv vo mne izza togo 4to toka 4to posmotrel 'I think I love my wife' i pervuyu 4ast piroga (kotoruyu ya okazca ni razu ne smotrel). Tak 4to nastr horowiy i est nadejdi na uspeh.

@темы: Stranno positivnaya

Lushan
Leju na krovati, jdu Donika zvonka. I dumau o tom 4to nado 4to-to 4irknut. Nu...syezdili v Edinburg s pacanami, snyali mawinu na denek. Bilo klassno, photki snizu. Jal normalno ne tusanuli. Was ho4u organizovat' house party a tak ni4e ne polu4aeca. Nu lan, na St Patty's Day horowenko tusanem. Taaaak, a ter' o seryoznom. Dumau syezdit na Easter break v Paris horowenko posmoret. O prowloy svoey poezdke ya ne pisal, nu mojet vremya-da naydeca. Was 4e-t poslednie dni otsipaus da rasslablaus, nu ni4e s zavtrewnego ponedelnika koe-4to da izmenim. Kak pacani k pyatnice razyeduca tak ya i zanimaca syadu. Day bog visu polu4u i poedu. Nado sobraca s mislyami i na4at' podgotovku k exams. Stolko ambiciy, a vremya uhodit na melo4i: filmi, muzika, eda... blin tak delo ne poydet. no 4to delat? naw mir nastolko kompyuterizirovan, ludi u vlasti tak ne hotyat 4tobi ludi umeli dumat, sami 4to-to delat, rabotat. Liw bi bilo bolwe razvle4eniy, popivok, i mozg 4elove4eskiy uni4tojalsa etim obrazom, poka mi ne stanem okon4atelnimi zombi. Mnogo dumayu o governmental conspiracy, 4to budet esli ee svergnut, kak eto sdelat. I kak obi4no v takih situaciyah, mozgi perepolnauca i ya ne pospevau za sobstvennoy mislyu. Nu da ladno, ne segodnya j mir perestraivat (vot tak ludi i ostanavlivaut sebya s velikih sverweniy). NET!!! hvatit, sednya. viklu4au kompyuter i zavtra k nemu ne podoydu bolwe 4em na 30 minut. I NIKAKIH isklu4eniy. Vas vseh lublu, i jelau 4tob vi poslali vse k 4ertyam i na4ali zanimaca 4em-to poleznim. Da hot' 4em: knigu pro4itayte, sportom zaymites, matematiku porewayte!!! Ne sidite tupo ustavivwis v telek ili komp!!! I pomnite, kak skazal...kto-to tam: 'Kartini eto illustraciya jizni a jizn eto illustraciya kino'!!! Poetomu pick your fucking asses up and stop fucking around - go fuck someone

P.S.
Spasibo gmail za quotes

@музыка: Timbaland - I'm a Believer. Silence

@настроение: Motivus

Lushan
Vot opyat ya tut pro 4uvstva. No na samom dele 4elove4eskaya duwa, ponyatie samo po sebe obsujdaemoe tak dolgo vizivaet stolko razli4niy reakciy vnutri nawego organizma kotorie privodyat k razli4nim expressiyam - 4uvstvam. Toska, odino4estvo, skuka, radost', lubov i t.d. vse eto tak interesno i tak... nu vi ponimaete
Tak vot grujenniy ya hodil ves den. Uje vtoroy raz podryad splu 10 4asov, prosipaus za 20 min do lekcii i begu, uspevaya pryam pered tem kak professor na4inaet govorit. Porazitelno moe otnowenie k u4ebe. S odnoy storoni - eto ve4noe nedovolstvo po povodu nego, kak tyajelo, po4emu u vseh polu4aeca krome menya. Vo vtorih eto kone4no je osoznanie veli4iya moego s4astya 4to ya tut, no vse j v glubine duwi 4to....kak-to vse blinski. V 3-ih dovolstvo po povodu togo kak horowo inogda polu4aeca virazit stol slojnie misli na liste, da ewe na angliyskom yazike.

Opyat dumau o 4em pisat. Ho4u skazat 4to lublu Samika! ne ho4u bit licemerom, mne o4en priyatno 4to on govorit mne, i vse je est mejdu nami svyaz...duhovnaya, 4toli. On i tolko on ponimaet menya...nu naverno kak nikto drugoy. I hotya vse ostalnie moi blijaywie druzya - Mustik, Izzat, Farik, Rovsh i vse vse BRATYA MOYI (eto ne po ratingu, oni vse mne odinakovo dorogi, i odinakovo mnoy lubimi), vse oni tak mne rodni, no ne vsegda 4uvstvuyu ya s nimi etogo...etoy iskorki, etogo. Ne skazat 4to oni menya ne ponimaut. Net nivkoem slu4ae! prosto mi s Samikom, MI PONIMAEM DRUG DRUGA.

Prosto inogda ho4eca zape4etlit 4to lovlu sebya na misli kogda mne horowo s moimi druzyami. Vot kogda mi edem na ve4erinku i gromko igraet muzika, ili kogda idem na futbol, kogda sidim u Izzata v komnate i perestukivaemsa s sosedkami, pitayas vitawit ih na ulicu, prikalivaemsa, edem obedat, da blin daje kogda ya boltau s Nodrom ili Nuskoy, s kotorimi, tak podumat obwayus o4en-o4en malo. No eto idet v to4ku - byet pryamo v seredinu, a rezultat - perepolnyayuwaya duwu radost, kak budto tebe 5 i tebe tolko 4to podarili tvoy velik i ti bejiw s dvorovimi rebyatami kataca, potomu-4to ho4ew podelica radostyu so vsemi.
Ehhh....Ne hvataet mne druzey. Uznal 4to WIUT organizovivaet euro trip. Poprobuyu k nim prisoedinica v Brussele. A sey4as nado idti gotovit seminar
Spasibo 4to vi est, ved' bez vas ya prosto ten'. Odni misli o vas podnimayut mne nastroenie. VI MOE VSE

Ya vas lublu, i vi lubite drug druga!!!!!!:jump3::vict:

:heart::heart::heart:


To conclude:

I am sending this to you to see how many actually read their e-mail.
Your response will be interesting.
Pay attention to what you read.
After you have finished reading it, you will know the reason it was sent to you.
Here goes:



People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person..
When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support,
to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.



Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.




LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons,
things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson,
love the person and put w hat you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life..
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.



Thank you for being a part of my life,
whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.



And If this still can't cheer you up...Well, just click the link :heart::rotate: :laugh:


@музыка: 2Pac - Starin' At the World Thru My Rearview; 2Pac - My Closest Roaddogz; 2Pac - Happy Home

@настроение: very mixed, ending positively. Upbeat!!!

Lushan
This quote is sooo much applicable to me. It is a wonder how one phrase of a person could describe a whole lifestyle of some completely unrelated person, who he doesn't know. Amazing

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Сижу болтаю с Сэмиком о жизни его и моей и об успехе в жизни. Этот человек один из той горстки людей за которых я умереть готов. Эх... слава богу, что жизнь сложилась так как она сложилась. Много было испытаний, и много еще впереди, но.... Да уж, сила мысли - вещь непостижимая.

Уже непервая ночь, когда всерьез задаюсь вопросом, зачем мы живем? Тут еще Клан Сопрано, и там те же разговоры. Ужас.

Так давайте подумаем вместе. Зачем мы живем? Это наверное единственный вопрос на который невозможно найти ответа (все эти размышления насчет а)загробной жизни и б)феноменальных открытий и вечной жизни, у них хоть есть какие-то leads)... Так вот жизнь и смерть - одна длиться десятилетиями, другая - вечно. К чему жить, если одна безвыходно приведет к другой. Конечно можно говорить о клонировании и прочей bullshit, но это irrelevant. У человека один personality (в большинстве случаев).

Человек существует не для себя, а для своих близких. Можно поставить перед собой целью принести за весь lifetime себе или другим (to whom how :-)) как можно больше удовольствия. Вот я думаю (и корю себя за эти ужасные мысли) ну предоставить для родителей хорошую, достойную жизнь, старость. Любимой - то же. Потом детям, внукам. Ну в конце концов, все эти трудности, испытания, это просто distraction от нашего конца, смерти. И не поймите неправильно, это не со страхом, а с вызовом мысли. Ну к чему человечество идет миллионы лет? К атомной войне, к порабощению инопланетянами, к аппокалипсису?

Понимаю, что не первый и не последний кто придет к таким мыслям, как никак уже миллиарды людей миллионы лет живут, hence, думают; и до этого наверно до этого тоже додумывались. Ну и все же. Если есть purpose, должен же быть какой-то, что-то...FUCK!!! Maybe эти мысли потому и приходят что идет т.н. "черная полоса" в жизни, когда все не охота, все не складывается. Тогда может и приходят мысли - does GOD have a plan for me? Is there gonna be something in the end of this shit, i.e., will this shit come to an end, etc....

Конечно грех жаловаться на жизнь когда она течет ТАК, но все же, потребности человека безграничны!!! Вот завтра последний день моей поездки в Le Creusot (I will reflect on that later), а я спать не ложусь, с русской клавиатурой ебачусь. ДА ПОШЛО ВСЕ НАХУЙ!!!!!!!!!! Эти мысли - отговорка или stupid excuse to be held responsible for my own actions....сука мысль потерял. :apstenu:

@музыка: 2Pac - U Can Be Touched, 'N Sync - Selfish, Sugababes - Too Lost in You

@настроение: Smart....pretending... Depressive

18:30

London P2

Lushan
Uje prowlo stoka vremeni a ya vse ne prodoljau. Tak i zabit nedolgo. Ladno, poydem dalwe. Posle etogo ve4era dolgo otsipalsa na sled den' i powel vstretica s Djamikom (hereinafter DJ). On priehal na Russel sq i mi poehali gulyat...nu tak mi dumali - t.k. o4en zatyanuli so vstre4ey 4erez 10 min posle togo kak ego uvidel polu4il sms ot Shahi 4to vstretimsa na Leicester Sq (ya ego vsegda nazival Лейчестер а оказывается просто Лестер.... странные людишки англики (tak ih DJ nazival)).... Tak vot powli v Brewmaster pub poobedali, powli gulyat....

Den' prowel interesno. Nametili mnogo planov na nedelyu (bolwe polovini iz kotorih v dalneywem ostalis nevoplowennimi v realnost')... Zahoteli poyti na movies no 4e-t kak-to zatyanuli.... Provodili Dj domoy i vernulis v Goodenough Club (GEC). Blin was tyajelovato stanovica 4to-to vspomnit... vse detali peresekauca i tyajelo otdat' sebe to4niy ot4et 4to bilo kogda.

Na samom dele posle Brewmastera (et ya was vspomnil) otpravilis mi s DJ, provodiv sestru, k Trafalgar sq...Tak kak ya koti-tellagan (tak ewe v detstve mama menya nazivala) ya kak osel rewil vipendrica i viyti v odnoy mayke na ulicu (tipa Newcastleci ne 4uvstvuyut holoda)...Huya-s-2!!!! (pardon my french)... Zamerz v 2 weta. Poka dowli do sq uvideli mnogo demonstrantov vistupayuwih v podderjku Palestini.... vooot...dalwe uvidite video...

Ну естесственно не хотелось отрываться от главной причины моей поездки - культурного обозрения. Поэтому побежали в музей National Gallery. Честно говоря был необычайно удивлен и поражен всей красотой исскуства - картин выставленных в этом музее. Chego tam tolko ne bilo. Exposicii X-XXI vekov i kartini samih vidayushihsa tvorcov kakih tolko videla zemlya - Michelangelo, Botticelli, Da Vinci, Van Gogh, Titian, i mnogo mnogo drugih velikih hudojnkov(AMAZING)!!! V osobennosti hotelos bi otmetit' a painting of a horse named Whistlejacket (by George Stubbs), kotoruyu ya vstavil dalee.



O4en napominaet seriyu iz Sopranos (season 4), kto znaet tot poymet.



No posle neskol'kih minut hojdeniya :wow2: started feeling that DJ is getting bored. Mi vishli i syezdiv v hotel za pidjakom (bolwe terpet' ya ne mog) decided to hit China town. After roaming the streets Shaha suggested going to get some sushi so we went to Os...something...wait up...yep here it is - Ikkyusan:


Having had some сакэ and sushi, we then, went to look for any movie theaters(!!!) still working, but with no luck went back and Dj left.

Vrode eto bilo tak... Lana 4e-t mnogo vremeni potra4enno malo 4to sdelanno. Ostalnoe next time. Return for more.....

@музыка: DJ Piligrim - all...Especially Ushki...Nice

@настроение: Positive, remeniscent

19:52

Lushan


Found this on the Rockstar Games site...NICE!!!!!!


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Lushan
Vot zawli s Izzohinom v library. Sidim figney stradaem, CV raspe4atali idem na rabotu apply delat. Jdem.
Dumaem o jizni, dumaem o drujbe
Dumaem o vsyakom, misli o bezduwnom,
I sidim s Izzohoy, kuwat sobralis
Upakuy, dodelay i logout, begi

Lushan
Oh man, that was crazy shit. Надо сесть и хорошенько все расписать. Thats the most I can do with my keyboard layout. The review of my trip. After arriving to London (L) I got down to the tube - THE FAMOUS LONDON TUBE, which is great, amazing and shitty at the same time, got a ticket for 4 pounds(!!!) and got to Russel Square. Stepping out in the rain with an ice cold face, headphones plugged and 2 heave-ass bags made me feel kinda special... Saw my sister...so small and so happy waiving me from across the road. She introduced me to her...friends. Now I realized I'm not so certain about wanting to go back home. These were some fine-ass харыпочkas....:alles:
V obwem...ups sorry. Well we went to the hotel which seemed very nice but kinda small, but then again Russel sq, center of fuckin London town. Met Akmal, who turned out to be a funny funky guy, and we have the same interest - Friends. He's a big fan, which was exciting to me. Had some whiskey in a bar. Funny thing - the hotel we stayed in is actually mostly run for students of the "Goodenough College".... What kind of a name is that. It's like, well, at least your in London, and here's a college that would be good enough for ya. And how about we name it that.... Its like the origination of the Halifax name (famous bank in UK). It came out from "Holly Fuck"... Izzo and Danny had a laugh about it and now Dan is Holly Fuck himself. ah off the topic again.

So... Akmal went from the bar strait to Heathrow - Tashkent. Me and my sis went out for....shit... To get something to eat with the Eards. That is Rupert and Catherin, my sister's ex-husbands sister and in-law-bro:roof:... After all these 10 years they still remember me. They are very intelligent and interesting people. Had a decent long conversation with 'em. Rupert cured from cancer, he's been in the army in the 80's and now works with the NHS. All so interesting. Catherin was asking a lot about Uzbekistan, and how are there still as much miliciya on the streets of Tash as it was back in the day....Damn, they even reminisced on how my uncle Durbek-aka taught english people how to drink vodka (they always need to be taught) on my sis's wedding. So many stories. And this couple is planning to get something like a Ferrari or something, a sports car. Fancy, posh. But so gentle, polite, friendly, kind, and even (forgive me Izzat) homey...They have a bit of Uzbek spirit still in them. That is rad.

Ok, this is part 1. I will get back to it, promise:dark:


the Eards



Near the Goodenough Club, soaking under the rain


@музыка: Beats coming from Izzat's room...Guessing Piligrim

@настроение: Beat down...for some reason

@темы: London p1

07:11

Lushan
Dear diary,
Eeh, wanted to comprise all my movie-watching experience throughout my stay in England - Newcastle. As you understand, since the internet speed is more-allowing than that in Tashkent, my downloading has increased vastly. Well, and in the recent days I wanted to flashback and remember all the movies I've downloaded, and, hence, watched so far, and how I felt about it.
Firstly, and most importantly, I want to emphasize on the movie "7 Pounds". Will Smith....is absolutely amazing. The story...well, here's the trailer so, you'll get the gist. I just can't tell you...cant express the depth of the feelings I had after watching it. My eyes were filled the last 15 minutes...
After that I've watched Marley and Me...My god, I know I'm a guy and am not supposed to do something like this...no ya tak plakal...sderjaca ne mog. Dumal o vejlike. Touches the deepest strings in your heart. There is nothing in the world like the love for your dog.
Started watching Che with Izzat. Benicio Del Torro is very very good for the role, he has a "charisma" (quoting Izzat).
Iz serialov...Dosmotrel OC...Toje za duwu beret, kak bi postavlenno ne bilo. Ne znau ili ya nitikom stal ili realno...ne ya 4e-to vashe nyuni razvodit legko stal. Ne znau

Seinfeld is good. DAMN GOOD!!! But the guy himself is a damn prick!!! Thinks too much of himself.

Shah smoryu The Sopranos. O4en interesnaya postanovka, otli4naya igra glavnogo aktera. Superb.

Lushan
Oh blyat...
Da uj ne znau 4to i skazat. Koro4e tak poka ho4u pisat. Edu v poezde v London. Serdce bolit. Examin prowel. Visu Wengenskuyu polu4il (HUDOGA SHUKUR). Daje ne peredat vseh misley kotorie proshli 4erez moyu golovu za poslednie 24 chasa. No4yu ya ne spal i doljen bil gotovica k examinu. Vmesto etogo zapisival Seinfeld Bonke i stradal figney. Koro4e vkratce rasskaju. S Izzatom bilo u nas prodvijenie v otnosheniyah. 4asa v 4 nachav i do 7:30 mi s nim obsujdali politiku, otnosheniya s roditelyami, druzey, jizn, vse!!! Otnowenie k jizni i Z(budu ego tak nazivat) otnowenie k roditelyam i relationship ego s pahanom, vse eto menya silno zainteresovalo i vizvalo more 4uvstv vnutri. Ya obnarujil v sebe ewe bolwee jelanie izu4at' psihologiu i voobwe kakoy-to vnutrenniy zov k ponimaniu i pomowi ludyam putem predostavleniya im prostoy vozmojnosti izlit' svoi 4uvstva, 4uvstva sobstvennoy zna4imosti (spasibo Dale Karnegie za to4noe opredelenie termina).
No v to je vremya wimit serdce. Po4emu-to poyavilas potrebnost, vernee o4en bolwoe jelanie samomu govorit...Ehhh naverno lu4we vsego zapisivat' golos...edakiy golosovoy (audio) blog sozdat... prosto narration of my own feelings. Then we started talking about politics and the perspectives or possibilities of realization of personal tactics, political ambitions. I don't think it's a good idea to write some comments on that on the NET, people that know (if I even publish the damn post).
Then, from an argument it became a discussion and even a monologue about Z's relations within his family, his dad. I was very pleased he had opened up, and amazed at the story of...what he knows about his dad. And their relationship (father-son). This made me realize, once more, how thankful I am to my parents and how much I love them. I also thought that...What is this life? Something I don't deserve!!! Fuck sometimes I hate myself....Lana tut baba sidit kakaya-to ryadom, ne ho4u 4tob ona vse ponimala
Yeb
Stolko vsego ewe mojno skazat...Skoka vawe 4ustv peremikalo v moey golove....Ter', v poezde ne mogu 4e-to vspomnit....Nu ladno esi 4e, podumau dobavlu

@музыка: When we ride on our enemies

@настроение: Sopranos...No fuck me, I ain't worth the fuckin shit