Oh blyat...
Da uj ne znau 4to i skazat. Koro4e tak poka ho4u pisat. Edu v poezde v London. Serdce bolit. Examin prowel. Visu Wengenskuyu polu4il (HUDOGA SHUKUR). Daje ne peredat vseh misley kotorie proshli 4erez moyu golovu za poslednie 24 chasa. No4yu ya ne spal i doljen bil gotovica k examinu. Vmesto etogo zapisival Seinfeld Bonke i stradal figney. Koro4e vkratce rasskaju. S Izzatom bilo u nas prodvijenie v otnosheniyah. 4asa v 4 nachav i do 7:30 mi s nim obsujdali politiku, otnosheniya s roditelyami, druzey, jizn, vse!!! Otnowenie k jizni i Z(budu ego tak nazivat) otnowenie k roditelyam i relationship ego s pahanom, vse eto menya silno zainteresovalo i vizvalo more 4uvstv vnutri. Ya obnarujil v sebe ewe bolwee jelanie izu4at' psihologiu i voobwe kakoy-to vnutrenniy zov k ponimaniu i pomowi ludyam putem predostavleniya im prostoy vozmojnosti izlit' svoi 4uvstva, 4uvstva sobstvennoy zna4imosti (spasibo Dale Karnegie za to4noe opredelenie termina).
No v to je vremya wimit serdce. Po4emu-to poyavilas potrebnost, vernee o4en bolwoe jelanie samomu govorit...Ehhh naverno lu4we vsego zapisivat' golos...edakiy golosovoy (audio) blog sozdat... prosto narration of my own feelings. Then we started talking about politics and the perspectives or possibilities of realization of personal tactics, political ambitions. I don't think it's a good idea to write some comments on that on the NET, people that know (if I even publish the damn post).
Then, from an argument it became a discussion and even a monologue about Z's relations within his family, his dad. I was very pleased he had opened up, and amazed at the story of...what he knows about his dad. And their relationship (father-son). This made me realize, once more, how thankful I am to my parents and how much I love them. I also thought that...What is this life? Something I don't deserve!!! Fuck sometimes I hate myself....Lana tut baba sidit kakaya-to ryadom, ne ho4u 4tob ona vse ponimala
Yeb
Stolko vsego ewe mojno skazat...Skoka vawe 4ustv peremikalo v moey golove....Ter', v poezde ne mogu 4e-to vspomnit....Nu ladno esi 4e, podumau dobavlu